Epiphany of the day

One of my favorite quotes ever in life, I actually stole from a Madea movie.

"If somebody wants to walk out of your life, Let them."

It sounds so simple, but it's so hard. That's the word of the day. When people decided they want to cut you off, or break up with you, or they don't want to have anything to do with you (and you haven't done anything wrong to them), then just let them go. Don't hold on to people who don't want to be held. It's like that scripture, don't cast your pearls before swine. These people. they aren't worth you! Seriously. It's a hard lesson to learn, but one day you'll be able to tell the difference between the poeple who will appreciate you , and the swine. It may sound harsh, but just like a pig would trample pearls, these people will trample over you. Oh they'll call you their friends, but only YOU get hurt in the end.


You are precious. And you deserve the best. The best friends, the best boyfriend, the best likfe, and the most happiness that you can possibly get. Don't cast your pearls before swine. And don't give your everything to people who couldn't care less. Keep your head up. You ARE somebody. And you have something to offer the world. But don't give it to people who will take it and then spit in your face. Just let them go.

Do Not Awaken Love

Ok, so last night I went to this church gathering that I go to every Tuesday. It's basically not really a church it's just a service of some of the most radical believers you will ever meet. I love them. So anyway, I was talking to one woman yesterday, she's a bit more seasoned ;-) only a bit, and we started talking. Eventually she asked me if there was a "special young man" in my life, naturally I burst out laughing and then said no. =) For some reason, I felt really comfortable talking to her about that topic, and she imparted some real words of wisdom into my life. She told me prayers that she has prayed, like she prayed for God to put her together with the person that she was meant to be with and that it would be right. She also told me about all of the marriages that she has seen that have failed because the 2 people didn't like each other. They married because they love each other, but they never really took the time to find out if they like each other. At first, I didn't really understand how people could love each other and not like each other. But then I thought about my sister, and when she ticks me off, I still love her, but I don't like her right then. I guess it's kind of the same thing.

She also quoted a scripture to me that will probably stay with me for all my life, and it is one that I had never heard before. Song of Solomon 2:7

"I charge you, O ye daughters of Jerusalem, by the roes, and by the hinds of the field, that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, till he please."

That's for us girls mostly I believe. We may realize that we have feelings for a certain guy, and that you two should be together, or are compatible or whatever. You think he's the one, blah blah blah. You can't try to make him see. You can't force him to have feelings until he's ready. It also shows that love CAN be awakened before it's ready. Which can be a lot of things. It can be just rushing into it, or trying to force a relationship that it isn't time for yet. This scripture teaches us to be patient and wait on God, as well as this guy. Just wait, because by rushing it, or forcing it, and you may be right about the guy! But if you make something happen before it's time, and you can ruin it. WE can be the cause of our own heartbreaks!!! We can ruin what may have originally been intended to be something special. So this scripture is just a little note to us from God anything, "whoa! Hold your horses! Calm down, and just wait a minute! I have an awesome plan for your heart, your gonna love it. Don't worry about it, I got this!"

And if your like me, then you'll probably need to remind yourself of this quote every day. Don't worry about it, God's got this. That's why when he tells us to wait, he says rest, and wait on me. We can relax and know that we don't have to make anything happen! When it's time, it'll be time, and we'll know.

Let Your Light SHINE!!!!!!!! =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OihvG607W-c



To see the people that we would just normally pass by and not even think anything of it. See near the end of the video how just the smallest little things even in the busiest moments make such a huge difference. That's what letting your light shine looks like. THIS should be our goal. =)

Words Forgotten

Oh how soon we forget everything that holds us up. Somehow when we have problems, all too quickly, every word of wisdom that we claim to live by is forgotten. Every positive thing that we've ever read, heard or said is replaced by how we feel at that moment. And we concentrate so hard on our feelings and pains and fears that we forget what makes us strong. This was the case with me, I found myself in an emotional place that I didn' t know how I got to. It was like suddenly there was an elephant in the room, and I had no clue how it had gotten there. Suddenly the size of my broken heart was bigger than every scripture I'd heard, every song I had sung, every piece of wisdom that I had lived by and I was consumed by a wave of sadness and lacked the strength to even try to fight the under tow. Then someone (who although I don't personally know, I count as dear to my heart accidentally reminded me of my favorite scripture Philippians 4:8

"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things."

And that's when I realized all of the negative thinking I had been doing! All I was concentrating on was my hurt, my pain, my sorrow, my loneliness. None of which were good. I realized that I need to shift my focus, because even in the midst off all this chaos, God is blessing me in other areas, for example, with my money! I have a semi-new job that I work 30 hrs a week at and another job (at forever 21!!!! yes!!) that I work at part time, So I have more income than ever. So I'm thinking that now while I'm dealing with all this other stuff and all these emotions and whatever else, that I'll buy/do things that I was not able to do before I had money. For one, I want to sponsor a world vision child, get a digital camera (or video camera that can take pictures too) so I can start putting up videos on Youtube. I can finally get the fancy Tea that I like, and ho knows what else I can do. But the point is that I should be concentrating on God, and all the good things that I have right now. Especially right now.

Reality check, the only reality that really counts, is the one that God says I can have. And he says that I can have joy that no man can take, so who am I to give it away??? EXACTLY.

I Love Kandeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Ok guys! (and by guys, I mostly mean the imaginary people reading my blog, shout out to Santa Clause and the tooth Fairy!!!!)

So anyway, I am absolutely obsessed with Kandee Johnson! Yes KANDEEEEE JOHNSON!!!! I honestly think she is one of THE coolest people on the entire planet. Her videos actually are the reason I started this blog which I am still naively hoping will amount to something of value/ and or significance one day in the near future. But anyway, I actually came on here to follow her blog, and I am very unskilled when it comes to technology, so for whatever reason I thought I had to start a blog to be able to read other blogs..... Sad I know.

But back to Kandee!!! I have so much respect and love for her, not only because of all that she has overcome, and her deep set values and such, but because she's just frickin awesome! When it comes to fashion and make-up, she is fearless, but I love her, because I know she hasn't always been that way. She is a real testament to the cliche that life is what you make it. It's never too late for your dreams to come true, and that your attitude determines your altitude. (Betcha didn't think I could fit so many cliches into 2 lines didya?? ;)

I found Kandee on Youtube {God Bless Youtube, and I WILL have videos on there soon, as soon as i buy a web cam or digital camera.....} and the first look I saw her do was a Pin-up girl look. I fell in love with Makeup at that moment. This started a chain reaction of me learning how to do my makeup. How to get a flawless face, how to make my eyes look bigger, I switched form eyebrow pencils to powder, am using liquid and powder foundation (and it's so light, try Maybelline products, so far, they're my fav for foundation, even over Mac and L'Oreal and Clinique!) And I have never looked better. Kandee came at such the perfect time in my life (even though I don't actually know her... i wish! and no homo guys, lets keep this PG) it was like God was perfecting me on the inside, and she helped me work on the outside, now I'm losing weight, my face looks amazing, and I'm closer to God than I have ever been!!!!

So Kandee, if you ever do me the honor of reading this, I just wanted to say thank you! And I love you, keep doing your thing, and also your my favorite person on all of Youtube!!! And here consequently! lol

How to Know Your over IT (whatever IT may be)

You know what I can't stand??? I cannot stand it when people that I've known forever just up and change for the worse for no apparent reason.

I had a friend going up, I've known him since I was about 8yrs old. And we were always relatively close. For many years I counted him amongst my favorite friends. Then over these past couple years, he started changing, all the sudden he never came to church anymore, he never wanted to see me or hang out, or even reply to my msgs on Facebook. He started partying and drinking, and hanging out with a ton of gay people. Naturally he denied all these things and it took him 2 years to tell me that he was Bi-sexual. I'd always ask him if he was, and he always said no.

Then he moved to California and felt like he could talk to me again for whatever reason, but I didn't want to talk. I was angry, and hurt that he had shut me out of his life when all I wanted to do was be there for him. Then he moves across the country and has the nerve to pretend we're friends! PLEASE!

So I sent him a long msg pretty much saying that I was done and that I realize we'd grown apart, wishing him a nice life, and letting him know that I wouldn't think of him or worry about him anymore. I realize now, that when you honestly don't care about somebody, you don't ever think to yourself, "I wonder how so and so is doing?"

I can't tell you HOW to get over something or someone, because in truth it IS case sensitive, but I know of one method that will work for anybody, don't think about it/them. Any time you feel your mind drifting towards that area, just distract yourself. Watch some meaningless cartoons, or draw, paint, sing, go for a drive, whatever! Just don't sit and dwell on it, that only makes it worse. (and for you girls out there who will apply this to guys, don't sit around day dreaming in If Then's. If I look really good then, If I lose the weight then, If I make him jealous then, DON'T DO IT! Because your not hurting HIM. your only hurting you.

How to Keep From Getting Let Down by People

We all hear little sayings that stick with us. One of those for me is "Don't make people a priority when they make you an option" I'm not even sure where I heard that, but it's so wise regardless. I mean don't put people up on pedestals and do anything they ask, accommodating them and whatnot, and they don't do the same for you. This is something that I had to learn the hard way.

Not everybody is as nice, polite, compassionate and giving as you are.

Read that one more time, Not everybody is as nice, polite, compassionate and giving as you are. And I'm not being bitter or whatever else you want to call it, but I have learned. Am I saying don't do nice things for people who you don't think will return the favor? Of course not, that's what Christianity is all about, or part of it anyway. Even the bible says invite people to dinner, and give people money who you KNOW can't pay you back. That's not what I'm saying. What I'm saying is for that person (or those people) in your life, and yes we all have them, don't keep bending over backwards for them when they can't even be decent to you. Being nice and being a pushover are 2 totally different things. And if you keep doing all these nice things for people just because that's how you are, and a small part of you is hoping for the same gestures back, your going to be disappointed.

I heard a woman say that the way that we show love is the way that we want to receive it back, so if you like to give gifts, you feel that as an expression of love, and so goes on the list with affection and quality time, pretty much every thing you can think of. One of mine for sure is doing thoughtful things that show I care, and that I listen, like when my cousin comes over and I have to get up earlier than her, I don't turn on the lights, hoping not to wake her. But she isn't like me. So when I go over her house and she has to get up earlier than I do, she turns on every light imaginable.

So what am I trying to say? Don't expect people to be the way that you are. When it comes to people, it's better to not make any assumptions, or have any expectations, so you won't be let down. Because when you expect everyone to think the way that you do, you WILL be let down by their actions. And for those people that you do all those little things for, and in turn they never do anything, try not to do as much anymore. You make them so important, and they treat you like a stepchild in a Disney movie. Don't make people who don't really care a priority, sometimes you have to face the truth that sometimes we make others more important to us than we are to them. So take that knowledge and apply it accordingly. You'll find yourself a lot less disappointed, and a lot more independent.